Saturday, July 16, 2011
yo blog i'm back again =)
ytd was a busy day.
i'm late for school again so sian.
but
things always had a perfect ending =)
it was 4 plus where i met JASSICA
wait a minute nope nope she prefer WAN XIN =)
YUP
WAN XIN when both of us took a bus 72 den 1 somthing somthing de
hiya i for got liao next time then tell you hahaha...
ya the bus trip was about half an hour we took the bus at the bus stop just outside
nyp's main entrance.
when we reach hougang (her house area) it started to rain.... (ho noooooooooo.....)
but luckliy she got bring urmballa.
great things was that i'm able to hold the urmballa for her.
at the time we were as close as i can ever think of (thank you rain)
with route that headed to her i can feel that both of us are getting closer to one another. isn't that great??? just imagine ..........
then we arrive at her block it was 402 and i guess she live about seventh or eleventh floor never followed her up.
so ya i was waiting at void deck where there is a chair.
beside that i even brought for her, her first cup of koi =)
but it seem that she like heaven and earth green tea more.
ya back to the story.
i was sitting alone waiting for her arrival,
then as i waited i felt thirsty.
then i was about to drink the koi which i brought for WANXIN (SHE DRANK HALF A CUP)
but i didn't dare to drink cos scared she saw so i waited again. but i cannot tahan liao. so i took a sip.
"HEY, I SAW THAT !!!"
THEN I TURN AND LOOK
it was WAN XIN.
OMG!!!!!! SHE SAW I TOOK A SIP OF HER KOI....
dam it caught it red haned by her.
after which, we took a short walk to the nearest mrt station.
and drop at kovan for late lunch.
she intro me with a lots of food.
and also on our way to kovan we crack alot of jokes on the trains
it was the most beautiful time i had since the past few years.
however like all beautiful stories there is always a spoiler part.
as we were eating a chatting happily,
i brought up the topic of SOMKING........
then i realised that she doesn't like ppl who smoke.
OMG how i'm going to go after her when she said she hated smokers.....
that its..... i have to quit liao..... if not she will never be mine.
but the biggest problem of all was that i have been smoking for more then three years le HOW AM I GOING TO STOP SMOKING ?????
dam it.
then she asked a question.
"DO YOU SMOKE???"
DIE GG
my first lie to her inorder to keep a good reputations on her.
die die die.
i wasn't ready to tell her yet.
so i lied.
i felt very gulity i emo the whole day
gosh i cant believed i lied to wanxin
i think if she know the truth even i jump into the yellow river also cant clear my gultiness.
then i come to a conclusion.
now i felt that my reputation in her was great.
and i feel that i getting to fall in her deeper and deeper.
and if i ever wan to be with her in furture,
i will have to stop smoking just like her dad it.
i just wanna see or hear she said to mi personally that
"i wanna you stop smoking"
i haven tell why i started smoking.
since young i never stay with my parents. i lived with my grandma. cos of some difficulty of taking care of me. then when i reach sec 1 i finally move back to my family. and i thought it was where a beauitful time started. however it wasn't wat is had think of. nightmare begin. it was my first time seeing my parents querels, my elder bro was a useless person and that time. he abused me and i got into depression a year later. all my family members didn't know. and i suffer quietly alone. then one day in school i was very emo. my best bro in school came toward to check mi out. i told him wat happened. and he understood. he gave mi a cig to smoke and told mi that my problems will be solved once i took a path. in the begining i feel that all my problems was solved and yet i missed out that my new problems had just born. i kept smoking when ever i faced problems, stress, sad, angry. and slowly from running away from problem using cig i didn't realised i had addicted to it. i had no one to talk i felt lonely. so i kept smoking and smoking over five year and now coming to six. it is hard for mi to stop.
by telling you all this, i'm afraid that my reputation now was not as good as before. but i had not regarts tell you. cos i know, if a person ever like another person he or she must be truful to him or her.
i'm sorry that i lied to you that i did not smoke. actually i do smoke.
so since you had known who i am. it will be your decision if you still wanna contact me anot.
and sorry for me lying to you. hoped you will for give mi.
but to tell you the truth i really hoped we can start sometihngs between us. i keen to begin anything to with. even to the point that you wan me to stop smoking i will too but it takes time. so i now told you that i smoke and i hoped to begin a relationship you with someday. what do you think for yourself. tell me or text me when you have the answer i'll be ready to accpet any answer from your truth heart.
to wanxin
from benjamin
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Dear Blog,
It has been a year plus since i last visited you. So i guess i should update you more about my new life in poly. As you know since i finally graduted from six years in AES, i finally reach my target to enter an poly. Most importantly the poly which i entered also the poly which i dream of go NYP. I was indeed very happy.
life in poly was i total new eipsode in my life. Just come to think of it is relationship. blog you know my heart belongs to the only girl which she still in AES taking her O LEVELS, and you also know that I kept a promise between her. The promise that I hard very hard on it not to break it, like what is always do. However this time I guess my determination and lost to girl name JASSICA.
In all the months in my lecture classes, I had never notices her pleasent. Maybe i'm blinded by my own determination. Thanks to angles, who clear my vision and let me found her. Jasscia, she is not a normal girl which i see most of time. Her pleasent let me understand somthing. which is "things that you being waiting for so long and they never appear to you, this shows that is time for you to let go". Which indeed i decided to give up my ex.
blog do you know what is have been through in my poly life??? i guessed you wont know ba. i still remember how had JASSICA entered to my life. It was the begining for analog lecture in Ltn 4. i was sited at the sit of the lecture room. Just as the timing was right JASSCIA entered the lecture room and sit a few rows to my right hand side. At that momnent my eyes were glued to her pleasent and my mind was blank. Can you imagine the feel i had. This is the same feel i had in my first love, and it has been more then 5 years, the feeling is back again. i'm not looking for a girlfriend now. however with the feeling i had on her i'm not sure of myself anymore. since that day, i always look forward to attend lecture with her. i really like her. but i cant express my feeling that fast. i still more information that i need know about her.
14/7/2011
i ask Jassica for lunch today, and she agreed. althought is not just both of us alone, but i still ok with it. she is more activite among her classmates, she talks more, laughs more. hope that our conversion will progress in that direction some day. ya about today, i realised she had a beautiful smile which in my opinion is a perfect smile. and sometime i can feel that she is a bit shy when she is with me. but i do not know what her feeling toward me. all of this it is this a mystery to me. which i know someday i'm going to find out.
about JASSICA
name: jassica lim wanxing =)
age: 18 years o =)
school: nyp =D
cca: playing violin =D (wish to listen her plays)
hometown: hougang
transpot to school: no 72 bus, drop at the bus stop near south canteen =)
fravouit food:
fravouit colour:
fravouit movie:
fravouit music:
hobby:
fashion of design:
likes:
dislikes:
what makes you happy:
what makes you sad:
what makes you angry:
kind of guys you like: (xD)
Thursday, October 7, 2010
yo back in blog again =0
today is a last day of school so must blog if not will forget la
hais another new year coming to the end
what had i learn since the beginnng of the year???
thinking that i have been fighting my six years in aes just to take this
o level exam
i wander if i really can make it to poly
year review
beginning of the year 15 "unlucky" had ended in 4/3
were unhappy but as time goes,boat had complied into one
and the noise volume had double up too
there were happy moment in this 4/3 5/2
like we won the road relay coming in first =) even though got 4/2
fastest runner and can da han running de still cannot beat the spirti of the 4/3 5/2
there will be more review added in the nexr post if i can rmb them
Friday, February 26, 2010
aloha
once again i'm back in blogging ^^
haha today was common test day =.=
whole day just doing test only
math
english
chinese
and physic
so boring cant stand it......
btw think that soon going for camp make me
think back the older days where i first have camp with my school
sec one camp was the most unforgettable event^^
don you agree???
however knowing that this time camp going to be a study camp really bring down the mood of having school camp
lucky the camp manger is my basketball coach wife
so maybe haha can ask her bring the boys (basketballer) go eat pizza
so we cant don eat the boring food in camp
now at tiff house
playing with wei kang ( wei de small bro)
the rest playing black jack
sadly they got no mahjong
if got i will be crazy over mahjong ^^
hahahahahaha
to lu xiao yu,
hmmmmmm....... to tell you the truth, i miss you a lot.
having to know that by term 2 there will be a high chances that we will be separated again. i don wan to. i wan to stay by your side to look after you and take care after you. i'm not a guy who speck my heart out. things i want say is all written hope you will see it someday.
there was little boy who met this girl that he liked since the day he met her.
he wasn't sure was it love but whenever he saw her he had a feel in his heart which rush up his mind and warm his heart. he told all his friends that; " whenever i met her i am not able to speck properly and whenever i try to debate with her i will always let her win because i like to hear her voice so every time during the debate i will always let her win". knowing that the little boy english was not that good but still that little boy don wan to talk back. in his mind he see her eye like the angle which brighten his life, her voice which wakes him up from his sleep, and her appearance was the only target which he wake up early in the morning so that he is able to see her. now the girl has been sleep in that little boy heart, unknowingly she had enter to the little boy heart. waiting and waiting the little boy is waiting for the moment to come where the girl has woke up and ready to start a relationship together.
hope you like the story.
bye ^^
hugs^^
wakakakakakaka
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
ar lo ha
poor ira dear girl
hahah
lost your voice haha serve you rite
heheh
wakakakakakakaka
ytd at cca i saw ira ci
and i got a conclusion that ira eye got shit
her ci is not hot lo
i am better and hotter than her ci xD
wakakakaka
still her clam that the ci is hot.
her taste very bad
it ture i cannot blame her
she is still a baby
sain la
i think i got to take a break on blogging le
now still in school mrl
going sleep first
got time today than update
bye ^^v
Monday, February 8, 2010
ar lo ha ^^v
today my school came a milo truck
than many loser when to drink
some even dirnk like never dirnk a milo before
wat the hell milo is like so cheap
for mi i sian of milo le
ira o ira she sure must always bullying mi
wanna cry le T.T
hehe
hmmmmm i think for now that all i wan to say
anything will be update at home
hehe
Sunday, February 7, 2010
today weather is damm hot
working under the hot sun
wow
is killing mi
btw today i have clear my mind that i sure hate indian
they are so er xin
they can shit in public
i mean their children can shit infront my store
it was so er xin
i lost appetite this morning
but happy thing is i earn 30 this morning
watching the show heros
i realised something
in life being special
is no different from normal ppl
it just that something about you that ppl don have but you have
so what you are special
you still have got to face
hardship
maybe being special the hardship you face is 2x more
than normal ppl
same in life
some time we face problem
problems that which could make us strong
problems that which could break us down
still
life goes on
what can we do
nothing
being a human anything is possible
trust it ^^v
